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MAJOR KEY to SURVIVING (Depression Anxiety & Depersonalization)

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My Story

My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different SSRI’s SNRI’s Tricyclics, Mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I for the first time had any type of possible explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of such Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started Testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 5 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time and I also share this on my channel.


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  1. When i overcame depersonalization you were my model thanks for all that you do noah

  2. Thank you very much you give me hope

  3. Noah Thomas, Douglas Bloch, and Kevin Hines are my models.

  4. Heh this video is actually on my bday… enjoying watching your videos. Now if I can leave the alcohol alone.

  5. You will read through a lot of fact concepts on this treatment method “fetching kafon press” (Google it) which is also clear and understandable. After the recovery process, I decided to volunteer at a shelter and I could not be more happy than aiding others. I really didn`t have directions in life before I read this particular book. I never wished to go out and speak with people for many years and been taking antidepressants to heal depression..

  6. Your a wonderful , brave remarkable man . Sending love and blessings to you 🙏🙏🙏

  7. spence 2121 Hang in there. Several years ago, I decided to view it like a game of poker. I imagined playing and someone calling from the table, because I had gotten up, “Are you in or out?” Each day, I play another hand. I know countless people have it tougher than I, but my life is my responsibility. I have found some models online. Amongst them are Tommy Robinson, Jordan Peterson and Lauren Southerland. There are figures from the past, as well. I suppose Abraham Woodhull, Martin Luther King, Jr. and Anne Frank stand out. All have shown courage in the face of grave danger and have risked much for the sake of others, mostly strangers.
    Since I was a teenager, I have had mood, anxiety and sleep disorders. I’m now 48. I recommend falling in love and owning a dog. Love with all your heart. And watch Cast Away. Pay very close attention towards the end. “Who knows what the tide could bring?”
    God bless y’all. 🤙🏼🙏🏼👍🏼

  8. You don’t know how much better that made me feel. Thank you.

  9. Who is this guy? Is he selling something?

  10. I don't know this Doug but he sounds like my model. Congratulations on overcoming that.

  11. I just found out your channel and I love it! I love the way you genuinely talk about serious stuff that a lot of people are going through every day.
    Thank you! 😊 finally a channel like that!

  12. I have a question. When you say that "once you have done it, you know it can be done" –> i get that, cause there are days and moments when you win. But the return to the symptoms of the illness, again and again, is what really fucks people up. Seeing that window of being well, and then returning to hell. It isnt just ONE escape.

  13. there is also a wonderful videogame that touches very deep effects of mental problems like having vision and so on …
    This is a very delicate topic. This videogame is an act of magic. Please y'all think about playing this UK studio game called Hellblade Senua's Sacrifice.
    It is very strong, it has not just one hand but it shows … we can all do it! It can even be played with VR. I am not here to sell stuff… I m just suggesting from my experience.
    Not that this game is a model but Senua might be one. She goes through hell as you say. Like Odysseus.

  14. You are a good person. I just wanna share a model here but I am not saying it's mine or should be yours (as you suggest too) … I met Rudy Reyes through a very cool TV Series back in the days we were not saturated with all this wasting time crap on netflix amazon etc. It was HBO Generation Kill serie showing to the world what War actually is. A farse and business eating alive this planet.
    Rudy made a book called "Hero Living: Seven Strides to Awaken Your Infinite Power"… if you are interested you may find something here.
    He had a very troubled life and well he's a rock. I think that also the people we live with might be not the right one if we fall into depression, but as you say I see in a video, depression is also a choice… we need to choose and have models too…
    hey ! You really touch delicately very very fragile topics. I love how u do it and Good job

  15. You were to me that which Doug was to you.

  16. Bignoknow ur videos help me alot..almost every day I look at one of ur videos before I go to sleep helps me alot..your my role model.

  17. Have you ever been so down that you ended up writing your thoughts down on a piece of paper? Even though they might’ve been really dark?

  18. Bignoknow Im 23 from NY I suffer from depersonalization and panic attacks. Feels like I can't breathe and knot in my chest all day and spaced out. What's the first step to recovery?

  19. hey man. thank you so much. you save my life. you give me hope

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